| SCHOOL IS OUT AND I CAN'T WAIT TO START UP THE SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!
how freakin awesome is that. i am dun w/ my sophmore year @ campus, i think it was my toughest so far. this summer is goin 2b amazing. well peace evry1.
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| well school is coming to an end and i am happy but at the same time kind of sad. i have made some really good friends in the past few months and i cant belive that i havent talked to them before. maybe next year and over the summer i can find some time to spend it with my friends. it will be hard because i have this new summer league team im on and i dont know exactly when i have ne free time. well peace out.
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| so far this break has been a complete bummer with the weather and all. i was supposed to go and see the OSU vs. WSU softball game today but it was cancelled because of the weather and feild conditions. this sucks. so i guess i have an early practice tomorrow and friday @ 10am. talk later. buh-bye.
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| GUESS WHAT.....I MADE THE CAMPUS SOFTBALL TEAM!!! omg, i can't belive it. i really didn't know if i was goin to make it or not cause i was way to darn hard on myself. well the 1st game is on the 28th of this month and i am very excited. wish me luck.
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| i have no idea what to say about the last couple of days. i know i havent updated in a while but its for a good reason. two words come to my mind to describe the past couple of days....."PURE HELL"!!! i dont know where to begin. well last nite i found out that i may not be able to live in my house any more because of my mom. so i might have to pack up and leave sometime but im not sure exactly when. its up to other people. last night i was told by my mom yet again she has gone back to her old ways and i tried to stay calm for as long as i could but when you're trying to talk to someone like her when she is in her own little world then it gets frustrating fast. so i flipped and lost it. i have never in my life ever yelled at my mom as loud as i did last night. it was out of pure anger that was bottled in for a long time. i said everything that was on my mind but in a scream. i guess you would have to be there to now exactly how tense it was. i cried so much last night that i couldnt sleep at all. but the worst part of today was that i really did consider not doin softball. sports are my life i would never want to give up something that makes a huge part of my life happy and just throw it away. i want to play campus softball sooo bad. i talked to friends and even my coach about it and they all have something else to bring to the table. i have know idea what to do. last nite i actually packed up some clothes in a bag and planned on running away for a while. ihad no idea where to go but i guess i thought that any where but my house was better. no more drama. but it was to hard to just leave my lil brother behind with the pain. so i decided to stay. smart decision i hope. i started to think where would i go and who would i dodge the cops. i couldnt let them know what went on. i have no where else to go. so i stay in hell for now. i hope i dont do anything stupid.
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